Yes, I know it’s been a REALLY long time since I have posted but I don’t know, I’ve been busy and tired and it’s hard because I keep trying to figure out what kind of blogger I am and I’m not entirely comfortable with what I’d like to be (leaning more towards fashion) because my body is changing all over again and it’s hard to get used to something that is constantly in flux. Here are some updates though:
I am FINALLY going back to school which is awesome because I have been really bored for a very long time and I love school and it’s been super frustrating playing the maybe, will I, what’s happening game but finally, finally, finally things are back in order and I can get back on track with my major (or both of them, I guess) so that’s good.
So far I have lost about 30 pounds -I say about because I have stopped weighing myself, after I realized I was dropping pounds the number didn’t feel important anymore this is about being healthy not bragging about a number and in the beginning when I wasn’t losing any weight I became borderline obsessed with the scale and I would worry and it was just starting to influence the way that I ate and acted in a way that made me uncomfortable, I’ve had issued with that before and I decided to curb those feelings before it turned into a problem. As far as the 30 pounds go, OH MY GOODNESS YOU GUYS. It is both super noticeable and not noticeable at all, it’s pretty hard to deal with because when you make progress you want there to be more everyday and it’s hard to stay motivated constantly. So I’ve taken away all deadlines and “have tos” (I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT BY THEN) and I’m taking it day by day, I find that once you really get a steady handle on your eating habits and making the right choices you can relax and not beat yourself up for taking that one day off, just wake up and get back out there, go for a walk, sometime to make you feel better, it totally works and the weight is basically jumping ship -thaaaankkkk goodnesss-
I have started eating really healthy, like REALLY, REALLY healthy, I’ve cut out all meat except for fish once a week (omega 3s ya’ll) and I’ve really found that it’s ALL about portion control, I know people get all crabby about portions but honestly the average person is eating WAY too much food in one sitting and it’s absurd, I’ve started eating exactly what I need to keep my body fueled (factoring in active lifestyle) and I feel great! I also started drinking a TON of water every day and that has helped a lot. ANOTHER THING, GET. YO. SELF. TO. BED. Srs. I go to sleep early and I wake up early, BIG DIFFERENCE, my skin is clearing up, my weight is coming off, I’m A LOT nicer to everyone. Because I love me, and that’s a good thing. When I’m feeling down or bad about something I just think of Tom and Donna from Parks and rec and I jump on the TREAT YO SELF train and I do something good for me like, painting my nails or reading a great new book, or having a dance party in the living room, or even acting out my favorite scenes from my favorite musicals (Eponine walking alone anyone? On my own? Eh? Eh?-Yea, I have a costume. )
I have gotten overly obsessed with Homeland, I love Damien Lewis and I think he is just a treat.
I still love you guys, stay with me I am just completely in the middle of an entire life overhaul and it’s really hard to take 22 years of your life and completely renovate. Speaking of, I have to go sort out more of my closet which is taking foreverrr since it’s huge, even after last years TEN donation bags I have even more and I might even be (GASP) getting rid of a lot of my shoes (obv not my most fabulous ones) so I can move more in, my closet isn’t huge so it’s hard when I have no space althoughhhh I might be getting a LOT more space soon so that’s cool, a bigger closet would be nice but I’m still going to go through all of it and get rid of the majority, I feel like my clothes represent a person that I became but never really wanted to be and I’m not saying that I regret the choices I’ve made because they got me to where I am now but I am going to be making better ones and I definitely have been in the past year, you can’t hang on to things and people you’ve known just because you’ve known them or had them for a long time, and I’ve realized that the most important thing is to surround yourself with people and stuff that you actually love and want around you, the second someone makes you feel bad, get rid of them and the same goes for your stuff!
Anyways, lots of work to do xoxoxoxoxoxo Ily.